“Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.”
I have to admit that this post isn’t the easiest to write… not because of nostalgia or my usual sentimentalities, but because I’ve been a little bit grumpy lately. Yes, me. I’ve been a lot grumpy, actually. It’s the week after Christmas, which for some reason is always such a kind of strangely lethargic time and a bit depressing; it’s cold outside and I can’t seem to bring myself to want to love the outdoors like I normally love to do… and of course it’s the end of the year! And I think, “where in the heck did the year go? how did I let time slip by so fast? did I make the most of it? holy sh** it’s almost tax time again!” Every year, The Stranger does its “regrets” issue, which is actually one of the best issues of the year… and, as much as I hate to admit it, even though I want to live my life with no regrets… (is it the same for everybody?) I go through this melancholic mood swing full of regrets about what “should” have been done.
Am I alone in this? Can you, my friends & readers, relate? Do you feel me?
So… I’ll just put it out there.
My list of regrets from 2010:
-I regret that I did not become more housewifely like I promised.
-I regret that I often did work after 3pm like I promised myself I wouldn’t.
-I regret that in fact, I did sometimes take my anger & disparities on the people around me.
-I regret that this year, as other years, I never did truly learn how to forgive.
-I regret that my mental lists never made it on paper, and inevitably never reached their destiny!
-I regret that—although already 32—I have yet to reach my pinnacle of self-confidence.
To counteract my regrets, however, I will post photos from almost all of my shoots this year, as well as some personal shots. And I hope that with these photos, I am able to give a little light into the things that I learned, the things that I gained, and the things that I will never hold any regret for…
love, art, friendship, growth, triumph, understanding, unity, family, self-worth, selflessness, creativity, joy, more art. And more love…
Happy New Year to all of my friends, new & old… I wish a year full of new beginnings, adventures, friendships… for you and for me, and maybe even for the both of us together.